yogamoon is right. Take care of your needs now. Take time and pamper yourself some.

5 yrs is a long time; for a 26 yr old it is practically your whole life. You don't know who you are as a person yet. If you were my daughter I would tell you this:

First: BREATHE. Inhale deeply. Quiet the rumbles in your head.

Take some time (maybe a year) and learn to live on your own. Find out what your strengths and weaknesses are. Know that you can take care of yourself; financially and emotionally. Finish your education. Figure out what you want . Dream about how you want your life to unfold. These things will give you options.

Then find a mate who travels the same path, wants the same things.

Maybe this man is the one or maybe not. It doesn't matter now.

(I actually did tell this to my daughter when she left her boyfriend of 8 yrs. She ran off with his best friend. Dad got custody of the kids. Now she is a mommy again and still doesn't know all the marvelous things she is capable of.)

Hope this helps
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